Where has the time gone?!

Hello Friends,

A little over a month ago my life changed, in a big way! I GRADUATED HIGH SCHOOL!!!

Graduation is something you talk about for 12 years of you life! Maybe even more, depending if you are a genius 3-year-old. But when it actually happens, it comes by like a wave. Slow at forming and then comes crashing into the sea within seconds. People have been telling me how proud they are so me, and how they can't wait to see where I go in life. And I'm just over here slowing dying of the thought of leaving all of this. Now I am one of the first people to say they couldn't wait to leave High School! I hated it. I wanted it to go by in the blink of an eye. Why did I wish that? Sure I had some bumps in the road. I embarrassed myself in front of hundreds of guys. I lost friends. But in the end, I feel like I gained more from the experience than lost.  

During my senior year, I gained a group of people that I know I will always be close to (or at the very least stay in contact too). Most of these people, I walked past for years and never once thought I would be so close to them as I am now. That's just crazy to me, to think I had a time in my life where they went in it. Because now I can't see my life without them. 

Now I went to a very small private Christian school for 11-years of my life. Most of the people I graduated with I had known since the 2nd grade. There were a lot of lost best friends of mine in that group. Ones I thought I couldn't live without. That's the thing about High School. You will lose some of the people that you were inseparable with during elementary school, and gained new ones. I think it's because we change the most during this point in our lives. Finding who we are, and some people just don't click like they use too.

Try to remember your best friend in 2nd grade. Are you still friends with them now? When was the last time you saw them? When was the last time you heard from them? 

For some people, they will have said they are still super close to that person now. But for most you probably haven't seen them in years. I was blessed to have my 2nd grade best friend become my best friend again during my sophomore year when my mother was dying of ALS. And though we aren't as close as we were two years ago, she will always be there for me, and I will always be there for her. 

I use to hate change! I hated the word, just as much as I hated the meaning. Change means the end of something, but recently I realized it means the beginning of something else. Maybe even something better. 

I know I am the complete opposite of perfect. I have so many flaws, I can't even keep count. One of these flaws is being angry and rude. That's something I have had trouble with since I was around twelve. I don't know why I am like it? I have been very blessed at everything I have been given, yet I choose to be rude than to be appeciative. So for the moment, I will take this change thing slow. I will start working on being nicer, and things like moving away will start to feel less nerve racking. 

So do you have anything to change about yourself? Leave something that you want to change in the comments below and also put how you will make the change. 

Thank you for listening to me ramble! 

Love always, Stephanie